Views from an Adult

I had been dating a married man for 4 years and we have recently broken up. I knew he was married all along; I will not try to deny it. I knew it from the first night I met him, he was forthcoming with me but the attraction was so strong that we began an affair without thinking of the consequences. We spent those 4 years together, we had out good times and just the same we had our very bad moments. I know he never promised me that he was going to leave his wife but for some reason deep down inside I always thought he would. It took an entire 4 years of my life to realize that he was never going to leave her and that I needed to go my separate way.

Now 3 months later I am thinking of dating free guys at my office. At least with them I know for sure that they are single because I have worked with them for over 5 years. There are two guys in particular that I think are very sexy and nice. One of them knew about my affair and had told me several times that it was better to leave him and begin dating free guys that would have something to offer me. Ever since he found out about my break up he has been very open about his interest in me.

The other night he invited me out to dinner but I was too embarrassed to say yes. I don't like the fact that he knows about my past relationship, and what he might think of me because of it. I don't want him to think that I am a lose woman just because I dated a married man instead of dating free, eligible men.

NowI really do hope that dating free guys will help me get over my ex boyfriend. I guess all I can do is give it a try, it sure would be nice to forget about all of the pain and anguish I have suffered and move on to better things. It will sure tickle my heart to forget all the past and start a new, maybe with one of the two guys from the office. I also hope in time God can forgive me for having committed the sin of wanting another woman’s man, I was weak and I made some really poor decisions that I hope to amend with time.